I just need to tell my story and get some feedback because i feel pretty low right now.
So, my mum is a jehovahs witness, me and my dad are not. She hasn't always been this way, up until about 6 month ago, but now, all her time is dedicated to going to meetings, awake magazines, the bible. She won't listen to me when i tell her that she's being brainwashed, because honestly, i barely recognise her at times. She is completely changing into this numb, boring, and predictable person. All her great qualities are fading away.
She believes that this new system is going to come within a few year so it is affecting all of us, it's as if she has stopped living and is now just waiting. I need my mum to be there for me, i suffer from bipolar type 2, and i find it difficult to see my best friend being taken away from me gradually by this fked up cult. I used to have my boyfriend, to rely on for support, but he finished me. I think my illness got too much for him, so now basically i have nobody. That's what it feels like. To make things worse, i am constantly being bombarded by comments such as "you are no longer pure" from my mum, because i slept with my ex during a mania episode. She won't even accept that i wasn't fully incontrol of myself at the time. I just really hate myself because i don't have anybody and i'm sick of wondering if next time i have a depression it will kill me.
Thanks so much to everybody that replied. I really appreciate the support.
++ My dad tries to stay out of it all, he thinks it's a cult too and has had many a heated discussion with my mum about it but idk, we aren't on terribly good terms tbh.
So, my mum is a jehovahs witness, me and my dad are not. She hasn't always been this way, up until about 6 month ago, but now, all her time is dedicated to going to meetings, awake magazines, the bible. She won't listen to me when i tell her that she's being brainwashed, because honestly, i barely recognise her at times. She is completely changing into this numb, boring, and predictable person. All her great qualities are fading away.
She believes that this new system is going to come within a few year so it is affecting all of us, it's as if she has stopped living and is now just waiting. I need my mum to be there for me, i suffer from bipolar type 2, and i find it difficult to see my best friend being taken away from me gradually by this fked up cult. I used to have my boyfriend, to rely on for support, but he finished me. I think my illness got too much for him, so now basically i have nobody. That's what it feels like. To make things worse, i am constantly being bombarded by comments such as "you are no longer pure" from my mum, because i slept with my ex during a mania episode. She won't even accept that i wasn't fully incontrol of myself at the time. I just really hate myself because i don't have anybody and i'm sick of wondering if next time i have a depression it will kill me.
Thanks so much to everybody that replied. I really appreciate the support.
++ My dad tries to stay out of it all, he thinks it's a cult too and has had many a heated discussion with my mum about it but idk, we aren't on terribly good terms tbh.
