Dear Body of Elders,
I have spent countless hours thinking and praying about my position within the Jehovah's Witness organization. What it has come down to for me is that I just don't think I can go along with all of the teachings. I know now that there is no room for dissention or individual thought within the organization. I think I can honestly say that I was not aware of this at the time I was baptized. I honestly thought that the publications were meant to aid someone in studying and understanding the bible. I know now that most people accept the publications as if it were the bible itself, as if it may as well have been written by Jehovah himself. I will admit that one of the biggest problems for me is accepting the changes in information. I have read and researched many of the publications dating back several decades. There are some very significant changes and differences in teachings throughout the years. Yet, the publications are always written in a way that suggests, sometimes in a subtle, sometimes in a more assertive manner, that the writings were spirit guided by Jehovah. I think that if you were to ask any devout Jehovah's Witness if they believed that the publications were spirit guided by Jehovah, they would say, "Absolutely!". Here is an excerpt from an Awake:
Jehovah’s Witnesses, in their eagerness for Jesus’ second coming, have suggested dates that turned out to be incorrect. Because of this, some have called them false prophets. Never in these instances, however, did they presume to originate predictions ‘in the name of Jehovah.’ Never did they say, ‘These are the words of Jehovah.’ The Watchtower, the official journal of Jehovah’s Witnesses, has said: “We have not the gift of prophecy.” (January 1883, page 425) “Nor would we have our writings reverenced or regarded as infallible.” (December 15, 1896, page 306) The Watchtower has also said that the fact that some have Jehovah’s spirit “does not mean those now serving as Jehovah’s witnesses are inspired. It does not mean that the writings in this magazine The Watchtower are inspired and infallible and without mistakes.” (May 15, 1947, page 157) “The Watchtower does not claim to be inspired in its utterances, nor is it dogmatic.” (August 15, 1950, page 263) “The brothers preparing these publications are not infallible. Their writings are not inspired as are those of Paul and the other Bible writers. (2 Tim. 3:16) And so, at times, it has been necessary, as understanding became clearer, to correct views. (Prov. 4:18)”—February 15, 1981, page 19.
At this time I cannot refer to this religion as "The Truth" as most Jehovah's Witnesses do. I cannot convince myself or anyone else for that matter, that Jehovah's spirit is guiding the organization. If the organization was to simply claim that we try to follow the bible as closely as possible, I could more easily accept that. Truth can only be truth, there is no such thing as past truth, or present truth. Truth does not change.
At this time, I feel that I do not belong in this organization.