Lets just focus on the promise of a life, free from suffering, and free from pain.
Eternal happiness.
On the surface this sounds great. No one wants to live in pain. No sane person wants to see people suffer.
What is eternal constant happiness? Would eternal happiness even be possible?
I find the concept to be quite undesirable. Without sadness can we really know happiness? Would you really want to live in a world without the full range of human emotions?
I think the feeling of pain, emotional pain, is what makes me feel alive. To feel loss, to feel grief, to feel angry, to shed a tear is what makes us human. With out pain, happiness can not exist. Happiness will lose all meaning. If you cant feel pain then you cant feel true happiness You will feel nothing. Feeling nothing is depression. To be eternally happy is to feel nothing, is to be dead inside.
I have suffered from depression for most of my life. I can describe depression as feeling nothing. In depression you don't feel pain, you don't feel joy. I have spent many days and nights just yearning to feel something. Pain, heartbreak and real sadness is something real. The times I have felt the most emotional pain are the times in my life when I felt the most alive. I would not want to live a life where the most basic, primal human feelings and emotions are taken from me. To be eternally happy is to feel nothing, therefore eternal happiness is eternal depression. I'd rather to be dead, then to be dead inside until the end of time.
I personally would not want to go through eternity feeling the same way constantly. My mother told me as a child that she didn't understand how she could be happy in the new system without my dad there, but that Jehovah promised that we will all be happy forever and never shed a tear. This happiness didn't seem real to me. This happiness seemed forced, nothing but an illusion.
I have experienced heartbreak. I have shed tears and felt extreme pain, loss, grief and I wouldn't want to take any of that back. That's what makes me who I am today. If I never felt anything, life wouldn't be worth living. It is pain along with joy that makes us feel alive. I don't want to live a life where I never shed a tear.











