Welcome to the forum.

Two years may seem like a long time for you to be gone and still have "fear" and probably a lot of other negative feelings, but as IntruderND said... it will take time. I've been out for about 9 years I guess (I faded out, so the timing of when I officially left is kind of a blurry question mark), but I still feel weird about some things like holidays... and I still feel like I need to continue to prove to myself and to others why the wt. society was wrong & misleading as a religious org.

Hang in there.

"Truth is high but higher still is truthful living." - Guru Nanak