Thanks for all of your nice comments. It has been so long since I've told that story to anyone who would truly understand the emotions involved.

Sam,
Yes it did hurt a little to post this here, and that kind of surprised me. My keyboard is still wet from the tears I shed while writing it. It was cathartic as well. I guess no matter how much time any of us has away from the borg, we still carry a little resentment with us. And yes, my husband does love me,(most of the time, lol) and he also wants to strangle me on occasion as well. He of course was never a JW so he doesn't understand why most of my family is the way they are, and I'm at peace with the fact that he never will. He was blessed with parents who supported him and loved him unconditionally. That was until they met me, lol. Just joking, his parents have both passed now but they accepted me with open arms, at least after they sat me down one night bout 15 years ago and wanted to know what my intentions were toward their son. Now THAT was a mind blowing experience, lol.

John (Cranky)