I so don't want people to think we are just "weak" and "letting life hold us back".
This was the part that shone out of your post Michele - believe me you must do what is best for yourself and your family, and to hell with what others think!!

After all, there is no 'right' way to leave the org - if you fade they will, as you pointed out, say you are spiritually 'weak' - if you say you want nothing more to do with them because you no longer believe they are God's chosen channel on earth, they will call you an 'apostate' and d/f you anyway image

Therefore it is important that you think carefully - try to limit collateral damage - and take control of your life back!!

Just seeing how miserable you are, has reminded me how lucky I am to be truly free from their mind-control and threats

Good luck on your journey out - we will always be here for you
Hugs
Sam xx