herdarkness -

First of all.....WELCOME to this forum! I hope you find more opportunities to get online and post more of your story. As superpunk touched on, many here are going through or have gone through similar situations such as yours and you would benefit greatly by relating you story here and reading others stories as well.

Try to find free internet access, such as a library or Apple store, something like that. Come to this site as often as you can to vent your frustrations and to gain some encouragement to carry on in your life.

Please don't let the JW's affect how you live your life anymore. Take control. Get as many jobs as you can handle, get an apartment, some friends, just get out there and make your life yours! Enjoy it even when times are tough. This world is a spectacular place and it would be a shame if you wasted it wallowing in self misery. I know it's easier said than done, and most times our feelings get the best of us, but you deserve a better life than you have. Go for it! I wish you all the best.


" I am not going to sit on my ass as the events that affect me unfold to determine the course of my life. I'm going to take a stand. I'm going to defend it. Right or wrong, I'm going to defend it. " ~Cameron (Ferris Buellers Day Off )