Darkness: Welcome to the board! you are in good company here. There are people here with many years outside with great advice, just wait a day or so and you ill have tons of posts from people who care and people who can help you though this. It won't be easy but once you are on the other side you will wonder how you even lived a single day on the inside. Check your PM

"Beware of 'organization.' It is wholly unnecessary. The Bible rules will be the only rules you will need." Watchtower , Sept. 15, 1895, p. 216. "We would not refuse to treat one as a brother because he did not believe the Society is the Lord's channel. If others see it in a different way, that is their priviledge. There should be full liberty of conscience." Watchtower, April 1, 1920, pp. 100-101.