It's hard to take. I supported my mom when my step dad left. I paid bills, all my expenses and clothes, lunch money from the age of 15. At 18 I was working to help support her. She went to NC and met a guy and within 3 or 4 days married him and came back to Florida with him. She kicked me out on my ear with no money cause I was helping her...saying "you're old enough to take care of yourself". Since then, we've had a very strained relationship. She divorced him a year later and I bailed her out again.

My dad is an Elder now after being dfd many times. Once I was dfd, he never spoke to me again.

My twin brother is in Colorado and in the truth. He completely cut me off, then a few weeks when he had problems he showed up at my place for emotional support, then he left and it's back to the way it was. My half brother is not in the truth and I reconnected with him after 15 years of not knowing where he was...I reconnected with him only 3 weeks before I had to move out to Arizona.

I feel your pain not having any family. I've tried to fill it with other friends. It helps, but it's not the same. I believe the only thing that works is time and gradually filling the empty places with people that care about you.