Hi herdarkness!

My name is Lara...and I can feel your pain. I have been out of the cult for 8 years and I went through hell and torment...just like you. ALL my family is still in the cult and I lost everybody. They have even disowned my son...which is a GOOD thing...he is not interested in them at all since he sees them treat me that way.

All the other posts gave excellent suggestions about how to meet people. It took me a long long time to get out of my personal abyss. But with a little work on your part...it does get easier. I went to counselling to deprogramme myself...and it saved my life. I was able to slowly build my self esteem to the point that I am at now. I am in my final year of getting my nursing degree.

I sincerely hope you can find avenues to help you out of this...and remember...asking for help (such as you are doing now or going to counselling) is wonderful! It is a huge step and you should be proud of yourself.