Hi Karon! So glad to see you saw through the "truth." The real truth is that the GB has a hidden agenda. IMHO, I don't think anyone in there feel God's holy spirit because it's not meant for them to. Personally I don't believe in organized religions or denominations. The JW's God is going to always seem wicked because their "god" is Satan. If you believe that the bible is the inspired word of God then you will have to do your own research. Just like this post is my inspired word but you can't see me. The bible says that Jesus Christ is the only mediator between God and man but the GB has interjected themselves into that position. That would constitute them being a bunch of "anti-christs." This is why you are most sure to find more hate within the religion. It will most likely take a while for you to de-programme yourself from the abusive and controlling mindset. They keep people in with fear of Armageddon. My belief is that God loves people and as long as people are trying to live righteous there is nothing to fear. They like to make people think that your "works" is preaching door-to-door when actually your "works" is however you choose to live your life since that is what every man will be judged by God on. A good rule of thumb is to thoroughly research any information presented to you. Don't let fear instilled by a group of self-righteous men rule your life. Take control!