Hi Karen,
If it makes you feel any better, I used to tell myself things like, maybe God had to have the death sentence for things like adultry because back then, without antibiotics, any std could kill and maybe, I used to think, without such a strong deterrent, the culture would have died out from that kind of thing long ago. Same with Sodom and Gomorrah, I would look at it that way, telling myself maybe God knew it would be much worse if it were allowed to continue. But other things, like the sacrificing of Issaac, Job, and other things, like Lot offering his daughters to the mob, I never did get, either. Hang in there. Try to determine that any time such thoughts of God or whatever enter your mind, you are just going to swoosh them out immediately, then do it. Give yourself time and a break from even thinking about it, other than open-minded research for the purpose of learning, not curing how you feel, and you'll get to feeling better. I've felt the same turmoil.
Cacky