Karon wrote:
Do you feel like the edge is taken off of anything you could feel happy about? I do. I feel like anything that makes me happy is so briefly enjoyed until the thoughts of God make their way into my mind....then it's like chipping a beautiful tooth! Geez..I'm a mess. LOL. I'm in Pa. Where are you?
Karon...I do know exactly what you mean. I really have a lot to be happy for - but I find myself allowing those thoughts to creep up on me and suddenly I feel scared and worried again. I have struggled with extreme feelings of guilt and worry my whole life, and I finally know why. I am slowly learning to control this and I'm noticing that the periods of happiness are becoming longer and longer the more my eyes keep opening. I still have a long way to go, though!

I am in Charlotte, NC. My meetup group site is here: http://www.meetup.com/Former-Jehovahs-Witnesses/ I just started this group - we have yet to actually meet, I had an event scheduled for yesterday and then I got into a car accident and didn't get there. I've set another one up for next weekend. Even though I haven't physically met anyone yet, there are a few members that I've already been communicating with. I'm hoping that this group is beneficial to all of us...I really believe that it will be. Please feel free to check it out - I encourage you to look for a group near your location, there are a lot of active Meetup groups for former JW's.

If I can help in any other way, let me know! It really is great to talk further with you...

Tracie