Hey Karon..
Welcome to the board... image
Reading your posts felt like I was reading about my self. I know exactly how you feel. I have the same inner conflict going on in me. My mum and I lived with my grandparents when I was a child."Jehovah and His Kingdom" were spoken about every day of my life. And I always loved the "truth" loved the bible, loved God, everything. I love my grandparents dearly. I want to make them happy, they have always showed me unconditional love. But I have been through so much in my life, all because of that religion. I honestly believe God (if there is one) has no part of it. But I know it breaks my grandmothers heart that I am df'd. I do the "yes" game too, cos I dont want to hurt her. And say, Nana, its a cult!!!!
This is just the best place to come, when I have had another episode happen in my day, and its JW related, I always come here, and remember so many others are having the same shit happening to them as well, and on here, we can support one another.
Welcome again to the board, looking forward to reading more of your posts.
Peace out