Wow Toad I'm so sorry this is happening to your family. From reading your post it sounds like you are carrying around a lot of guilt....as a dad and struggling emotionally. I have struggled with depression off and on since I was 13. I really didn't start feeling better and having no episodes until about 2 or 3 years ago. One thing that has helped me is to build my confidence. We all have a right as human beings to get upset, angry, depressed. Life is hard so please don't compound what you are feeling with guilt. I truly believe it is the most compassionate and caring people in this world who suffer from emotional illness. Our hearts are to big and we want to be everything to everyone all the time...without thinking about ourselves. I'm sure you are a good person and a good dad. You and your wife adopted 2 children to give them a good home which speaks volumes about both of you. Take a time out and work on you. It sounds like your children are very strong willed...I think they will be just fine. Focus on what you need to heal and worry about one thing at a time. I wish your family the best!image
Take Care,
Brandi