Really sorry to hear you've had to deal with this for so long, especiallly dealing with the feeling that the Witnesses are the true religion, and having to be apart from that. It sounds overly simplistic and I'm sure unsatisfactory, but let me assure you - if there is a true religion, the Witnesses ain't it. WElcome to the forum, there are alot of wonderful people here who can offer all sorts of help in dealing with the damage done to us by the Watchtower Society.

Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones. I am not afraid.
Marcus Aurelius