Beth, you have shared so much with us in the last months! I am in your debt.

You are now in the 'angry phase' -- I was there for about 10 years. God help any JW that would approach me after I crossed over to the angry phase! Looking back I think I might have over reacted a bit.... yelling at the poor street corner witnesses.

But I also spent 10 years or so in the 'unworthy damaged goods' phase first. You seem to have skipped that one.

You spent over twice as much time in the Borg as I did. Please be patient with yourself if it takes you some time to come to peace with it...

When I stopped smoking I had to replace it with something to break the habit, if only temporary. I chose hard candy; it only cost me 3 new cavities before I was able to kick it. Go pursue something positive, even if it isn't the 'be all and end all' . I have loved your posts but TOTALLY understand if you take a year off! I can't face this stuff every day; it's becoming obsessive for me too.

Loneliness is one of the core weaknesses of the human condition. It is why the WBTS and others like them achieve such power over us. We need to be pro active to achieve social interaction that sustains us and does not drag us back to enslavement within the Borg.

Love,
Locutus.

Last Edited By: Locutus Jan 28 10 8:36 PM. Edited 1 times.