you always have the backing of the brothers and Jehovah when you're doing what's "right"...


You have that illusion, but it is just that.  What you are experiencing now is the loss of that illusion.  The fact that it was never real doesn't make it's loss less painful, in fact it can make it more difficult.

A "clean break" is certainly an option.  There are some here who have done that and they will be better able to advise you on how to do it and how to handle the aftermath.  We've all lost friends and had to start over.  Was there anyone in high school that you got along with?  Someone you could reconnect with?  Anyone in your classes now?  Having a friend that is separate from the chaos that will ensue could be a big help.

And of course you can always come here.  We do know what it's like.  Hang in there.  Figure out what you want to have happen, and then make it so.  We'll help however we can.

We have another guy who is going to school and trying t get out of his jw parents house.  Maybe you guys live in the same city and can be roomies. 


"The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago; the second best time is now"
-old Chinese proverb

"Unthinking respect for authority is the greatest enemy of the truth"
-Albert Einstein

“Joy is what happens to us when we allow ourselves to recognize how good things really are.” ― Marianne Williamson