Beth Sarim- I know exactly how you feel. I love this site and people here have been so helpful and kind to me. Often though I need to take a break because some things just bring back bad memories of things I have worked so hard to get over. I love the light posts but try to avoid the indepth religious ones. I just cant go there anymore. I know people are at different stages of recovery. If I get into too much I become bitter and depressed. I need to move on. I try not to dwell on the fact that most of my best years were spent putting in time (for what?) and that I missed out on so much that life has to offer. I try not to dwell on the fact that I raised my kids the same way and they also have missed out on so much. I try not to dwell on the fact that friends and family are not there unconditionally. I have not gone to college, pursued my passions, or learned how to love myself . My whole life has been guilt, guilt and more guilt. So I do understand.  Hang in there and know there are many more like you here.