Beth I have been where you are, several times, and I'm sure I'll be there again. It comes in spurts for me. I expect it and kick the shit out of a punching bag which is quite therapeutic

I actually went through this very recently, hence I haven't been on here much in the past week or so. I just needed a total break from it all. I did not research anything, I didn't talk about it, and it helps. We can let it completely consume us so when we see it happening we have got to instantly stop, take a break (however long that may be), and clear our heads. The fact that you are such a level headed person makes you in a good position to be able to do that. You'll be ok. We all have been through it and some still are going through it. Like I said, it comes in spurts for me. They get fewer and further in between. Devote a day or a week or more to stuff non-JW. Not even talking about it, you will feel 100% better.