Thanks so much for the kind words and encouragement.....what I NEVER got from the Witnesses in over 30 years! I had felt guilty for a few years after leaving....until one day I said to my daughter (God, I love her !)....'What if they are right and it IS the truth? To which she said "then I guess we're screwed but I'm still not going back!" I just laughed and in a way it cemented my decision. My 5 kids are my heroes...they have been through SOOOO much and even though at times we have to get on the phone and talk things out because we are messed up inside still, they are the ones who are strong and have been THE only ones I have been able to talk to.....My current husband cannot understand where I am coming from so, when I try to tell him about being publicly reproved for nothing or marked for no reason, he zones out ........I am so grateful to have found this site! It's like a sigh of relief.....Thank you!