WOW...ty EVERYONE.....I FINALLY HAVE FRIENDS !!! wooooohooooo....and friends who actually know what the heck I'm babbling on about! COOL...I love it...BUT...you, Andria invited me to talk...soon, you'll be wishing I'd shut up! hahahahaha I do love people and I do love to talk...maybe that's one reason I pioneered...nahhh j/k...I did it mostly because they kept repeating ( repition for emphasis ya know) dooo more ..more ...more...it's never enough and besides when you're a jw, you're free time is not your own. There's a song by Perfect Circle one of my sons showed me....the video shows sheep (snickers) all being brainwshed and led to slaughter....god, I remember my mom always asking us while we were growing up "do you wanna be a sheep or a goat"....and I can recall thinking NEITHER ! I wanna be ME!
Thank you guys so much for the wonderful, loving and caring advice....it's awesome to hear something positive instead of hey, you're not doing enough.
You're right Sam, this is a wonderful site and I am so glad I stumbled on it and Andria, where I live now, in the mountains up in a hollow where even JW's won't tread !! hahaha ....so until we sell this place, I'm stuck and you all will have to put up with me!
Cacky....I am thrilled to be free too but still get this stupid guilt thing going on I have to work on. I think it is because I check on my mom by phone every Wednesday because even though she won't see my reasoning, she is in her 70's and she IS still my mom and I love her. You know, she still tells me Satan's got ahold of you! I keep wanting to say well, better than the JWs! Someday i should say that, then maybe she will stop sending me all the literature which I promptly put in a box and drop it off at the local thrift store.
Geowyn, I LOVE it when you said your mom is realizing the lies of the truth...so true and ironically funny as heck.
Ronnie, ty for calling me brave...and you too tisaveeone....I'm not strong but I'll take any kind of compliment I can get. Maybe someday I will be brave and strong enough to speak out more, that's what I'm aiming for.
TY everyone....YOU ROCK !!!