Hi Tim..im also new and looking for the same things in this forum! Nice to meet you and i can really relate to ur story...I was already drinking and smoking weed on occasions when I was a jw but when I left, it became a daily thing..got real bad..I was just living day by day not thinking too much about it and like you one day i decided to deal with my issues and actually research and make real decisions about everything..and to stop just getting high and live the moment. now I completely stopped smoking and only drink on occasions to have fun. You will be at peace very soon with everything and truly live a free life. So like i said before im new with this too..but im sure it will do us alot of good and it seems theres alot of amazing people with experience. See you around!