Thanks Rhonda & Valerie...yes I know time will help.  It's just interesting what James was talking about - I find it easier to believe that JWs leave and become atheists or feel that if there is a god they have anger towards whatever that is.  I am always surprised when people leave the organization and are still very religious.  I'm not saying I think it's BAD, I am just surprised.  But all that means is the anger I have is directed towards organized religion of all kinds.  So at this point, my hatred is to human organizations and not God if he exists.