One more thought before I go night night - My dearest friend (aside from my hubby of 26 yrs Dec 29 - yay- Happy Anniversary to us!) goatherder (Jill), who became a witness at 19 yrs of age, pioneered many, many years, and finally left about a dozen years ago, is still avidly searching for God.  She has checked out different churches and talked with the pastors and ministers and is in bible study and I am like "Really?  You get up on Sunday morning and look forward to going to church?!"  She doesn't claim to have all (or any) of the answers, but I give her huge kudos for still trying!  I think so many of us who have left are just completely jaded and disgusted with anything religious.  So good for those who still have that spiritual need.  

I think for a lot of us it is true that we equate org. with god.  It's a vicious cycle.  Every question brings up more questions, you know?

Sleep tight and hope all of you will have peaceful dreams that do not include scary Armageddon scenarios!Wave