Thanks for your insight, Eddie.  You're right about the cave analogy; I don't thing my brain is processing the light right now at all!  And it's almost like, for me, another religion = more rules and regulations and judging...I'm sure that's not how it really is, but I feel wary of it.  I'm still "in", haven't left yet, so again I can't really speak on the subject with any real knowledge.  I just know I am wounded, so time is key.  That's why I love the group of people here, though...as you said, no judging.