I totally understand your worries.............but as others have said, if you feel that you are vulnerable..........then you are still under the radar of the religion.........in which case you should analyse your position, and free yourself from their bondage!!

Maybe the powers that be come here and read, or maybe not!!  I would be surprised if they were hanging on the every word of us so called apostates..........but I never say never"!!  Your freedom needs to come from within, and then they have no hold over you!!