Wonderfulsomebody,
It isn't surprising you are in a depression. You might even need medication to get yourself over it. You've been through a lot and are still living under stressful circumstances with the parents wanting you to remain a jw and you dont' believe anymore, all that conflict. I'd see a physician, just your regular doctor for starters. And if you have one who seems rushed, find another one and tell him the whole story. They can not treat correctly for depression and mental/emotional issues if they don't have the whole story. I hope you get better. I've been there, and yes, sleep is all I want to do when I have it.