Hi Joan!  It sounds like you are starting over completely.  It's never easy to get through what you've endured, but you made it, and now you are free to make your life what you want it to be! 

I looked on your profile and was able to see the picture of your son.  He looks like a handsome little man.   And your avatar is simply lovely.  smiley: smile

"The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago; the second best time is now"
-old Chinese proverb

"Unthinking respect for authority is the greatest enemy of the truth"
-Albert Einstein

“Joy is what happens to us when we allow ourselves to recognize how good things really are.” ― Marianne Williamson