Hey wingnut!!  I am so sorry you are feeling down at the moment!!

I don't have any great philosophical gems to impart.......but as another ex-jw in their 50's, I do understand that every so often the legacy of the religion rears its ugly head, and I have been inactive for over 30 years!!!  Unfortunately although I stopped attending meetings I never took the opportunity to actually examine the religion, I just carried on with the guilt in the back of my mind!!  

I'm just glad that you had the foresight to actually question, that took a lot of balls!! 

It's good to have you here, and I hope you enjoy your time here


Hugs
Sam xx