I know this is silly, but happiness is...

-guiltlessly, freely cursing and telling my jw brother to shut it when he harps on me for it.
-loading my poor christmas tree DOWN with ornaments and lights and all kinds o lil extras around and on the house
-wishing happy birthday
-...BIG ONE... loosening the society's grip on my family just a bit. they are a lot more relaxed on what they wont do BECAUSE OF ME!!! i actually got and received happy birthday messages and they are PROUD of my army service. go figure.
-publicly (OH MY WORD!) showing affection to my hubby.
-wearing a mini skirt and barely there top and Flaunting it
-riding in a car or being in a closed room alone with a guy. (and, omg, can you believe that i havent gotten raped or screwed the hell out of them?! -isnt that what ALWAYS happens, according to jw's, when you are 'alone' with a guy? haha)
-being able to tell people off and have my own voice (wait, that's why it was so easy to leave anyways! )

"Until they become conscious they will never rebel, and until after they have rebelled they cannot become conscious." "she only questioned the teachings of the Party when they in some way touched upon her own life. Often she was ready to accept the official mythology, simply because the difference between truth and falsehood did not seem important to her." -1984, George Orwell