My dad is amazingly talented. He's been home less than ten minutes and we've already had a fight. He asked how I'm liking my classes, and I told him I wasn't, and what I wanted to study instead. Ive been all but outright forbidden to take any classes on forensic science or anything else in that field. He says it's not very Christian to want to study about how people die and getting in the minds of criminals, and that I need to study something more upbuilding. He knows very well that paralegal was never something that remotely interested me, and he pushed me into it. He frustrates me to no end! I haven't even told him yet that I turned in my letter last week. I'm going to let him hear it from the elders because right now I don't feel like handing him that gift on a silver platter. I've spent my whole life bending over backwards to please him, because just being me isn't good enough. I'm tired of it, but I don't know what else to do. It's not as simple as just my future career though. I know very well that if I don't submit to his desires, when we go in to that meeting he'll say I'm not demonstrating a repentant attitude, and that he doesn't think I'm ready to be reinstated. If I don't do what he wants, I lose my mom and my aunt and my uncle and my cousins for possibly forever. I can't deal with that. I can't deal with any of this. Lol so much for cheerful chat.