Haha I was sitting at the meeting the other night, and they were talking about all the hate there is out in the world. About how the organization is our only sanctuary. Because all those heathen worldly people, just look at them, killing and raping and full of prejudice. I sat there, thinking, "yeah, I'm pretty sure every person at my work has at least murdered one person personally. Thank Jehovah that I can be here in this refuge of lovely spiritual people, even though they won't even look at me."

No. I sat there laughing to myself. Here I came on to this forum, and all you horrible sinful worldly people and you mentally diseased apostates were far more sympathetic, and you all immediately reached out to me, a stranger, when the people who had been considered my friends for years had abandoned me at the snap of the bOrg's fingers. On the one hand, I understand that they are taught and truly believe that they are going to help me by doing this, and that this is God's direction, and I forgive them because they know not what they do. But now, being on the other side, I'm angry at myself for ever being so blind. I'm just so glad that I never personally knew anyone who was disfellowshipped, because I wouldn't be able to forgive myself for treating them the way I'm being treated.

So guess what? In a couple weeks, the Rum Diaries are coming out in theaters. I'm going to go see it with a couple friends from work(I'll come up with something to satisfy my parents haha, as Jennifer said I must be corrupted in the name of Johnny Depp). Yes, I'm going to rub elbows with those horrible worldly people -- but guess what-- despite the appearances I'm putting up for now, I think I can count myself as one now, and I'm very proud to be able to say that

Abbs

It's funny how someone can break your heart, but you can still love them with all the little pieces.