DoISmellCoffee wrote:
Made contact with a mental health professional this week. Big step for me as I didn't know I needed one, never thought I'd need one. I can cope with pretty much anything can't I? No, I can't, I mean I can live, work, have fun, laugh and joke, care about others, enjoy them caring about me, I have a life but "it" doesn't go away. I know some of what "it" is but I think it's like a fungus with threads burrowing into places of which I'm not fully aware. It's also like those stains on walls made by past damp, you paint over it and it's fine for a time but... 
I completely understand 100%. I think we prob. all do. 

Congrats on taking this important first step. I'll be interested in reading any of your posts in the future if you have anything you find interesting or profound that you are comfortable sharing with us about how your therapy is going.