I completely get what you're saying. I've been a 'pretender' for a while too. I don't go to every meeting tho, just enough to keep those elders away with their annoying questions.

I used to get so angry at the crap they were spouting aswell but I'm trying to see it in another way and see the funny side. It's actually quite hillarious sometimes. And I secretly argue with them in my head.

And then if that gets boring I like to watch all the other jw's trying to pretend they're listening. Not long ago there was an elder sitting across from me who had fallen asleep and put his hand down his pants!!! Priceless!