Hi Clever and welcome to the board.

I'm not a JW or an ex-JW, but I have a son who is "in".  He married a "born in" and they now have an 8 month old who "likes his Caleb videos"(eye roll).  My grandson is going to be raised as a JW.  Talk about going crazy and wanting to tell them how wrong they are!  I know how it goes.  I've been a part of this board for 2+ years and have derived a great deal of comfort from the folks here.  I'm always blown away at the intelligence and compassion I find here.   What I hear them saying is to just be patient and don't rock the boat.  I  tried to convince my son's mother (we're not married anymore and she's studying with him) that the JWs were nuts(to strong?) and got nowhere.  So I've learned to not talk about the organization (I won't use the word religion cause it isn't) with either of them.  As long as I keep my mouth shut I still get to see my grandson and son.  That's not how it should be but it's reality.  I expect that at some point I'll let them know what I think but I have to be ready not to see them again.  That makes me sad more than anything else, but it's mixed with anger that this organization breaks up families.  You are not crazy.  You're just in a different place and that's okay. We all take our own time on our journey.  Hang in there...it gets better.

Pat