You certainly are not the only one with this problem. This topic comes up again and again. I also think if you haven't already, do some reading, such as at jwfacts.com, to find out more about how the religion is wrong on so many levels. That might help your mind get over the mentality that was ingrained in you, of us versus them, we're good, they're bad, and maybe it will help you to view people more rationally. Also, you mentioned money was a problem for school. The government offers a grant, called a Pell grant, you have to fill out what's called a FAFSA application. The amount granted more than covers community college fees and you'll even get a few hundred in your own pocket. If you're really interested, visit your local community college financial aid office to get the ball rolling. You could start school in January. The financial aid offices at schools get tons of people who have no idea where to begin to get financial aid and they'll walk you through it. Good luck in all you do.