You wanted to join the WACS or the WAVES? It has been many years. My advice is don't dwell on them. It's never too late to start over (cliche - yes, but true). Focus on the years you have left. Do what the hell you want to do. Make yourself happy for a change. I've been spitting mad about the 23 years I lost. But I had to get over that. I don't know. I suppose the answer is different for everyone. But for me it was making up for lost time by getting an education. I felt sort of sub-human before I left and now (more than 10 years later) I feel like a whole person. It takes affirmative action - setting goals and working toward them. It's hard work. But (here's another cliche for you) everything worthwhile is.