Cee Cee wrote:
I'm with Bill. Your parents love and miss their own.

But... in the eyes of any well-indoctrinated JDub they're totally convinced that their continuing adherence to the Watchtower is the only hope any of you have for surviving Armageddon. That's all the more reason they've GOT to say 'loyal' to the Organization.

Very good point CeeCee....
One thing I do remember...especially about my mom....is that even at times when she was ready to give up, she would go because of my brother and I. If she was pissed at an elder she would want to stay home but later I would find out the reason we took off last minute was because she couldn't imagine paradise without us and didn't want to do anything to jeoperdize that....

My parents went through a lot of abuse (emotional) from the congregation I grew up in because of my mother's severe depression. They even moved away (from the congergation) for some time because my dad thought it would help her. He had to step down as an elder and all that. MY dad ended up being super paranoid about all the elders ALL the time..... It actually worried me sometimes...
Anyway with all that (and I just brushed the surface) somehow they "remained loyal" to the oraganization. I remember my parents saying things like, "somtimes a CO will come through and clean out the entire elder body...) I think they just keep hoping for stuff like that. (if they would only realize that wouldn't change a thing)

I just worry because they both just turned 50 and they were never the picture of health. My dad has had numerous surgeries for sleep apnea and my mom deals with high blood pressure and as I mentioned before she has severe depression.... I don't want the next time I see them to be bad news.
Plus I heard through the grapevine that my brother is engaged...who knows maybe married by now.

OK...I'll get off my sad train.

I've got good news to think about that I'll post in the cheerful section!!!

BTW thanks everyone for your hugs!! image