Ronnie,
It sounds like you do much better now, and I had no idea you had those problems. I was surprised to read that but I also felt more sympathetic after reading it because If you have had that issue then maybe I am wrong because I don't see you as weak at all. Although I still have a hard time understanding. When I was a teen I tried almost every drugs 1 or 2 times tops to see what it was like and took copious notes each time. I still have the notes, there a riot, I can scan them if you guys want a awesome weird read.
Pot made me nervious, Coke made me well acually Coke was not to bad,Crystal meth confused the hell out of me I ended up wondering around at a Rave or 2 thinking WTF? , Asid was crazy I did it 2 times when I was a teenager because a friend told me they had a group vision with there friends and were able to read each others minds so I wanted to see if it was real or if they were just high. That was a interesting time, But It Lasts WAY TO LONG. I was tripping the first time like 20 hours and I mean hard. I think I have been drunk 2 times, 1 time when I was 17 to see what it was like and one time when I was 20 because my friend and I made a packed that we would get drunk that night. SO those are my expirences with drugs and booze, pretty limited. I am acually glad I tried them because otherwise I would have had no way to understand like 90 percent of the population. Anywhoo I know that some expirences were kinda fun but most of them were just so stupid and I am fully capable of being stupid sober, I do it all the time. I so just went off topic well its Friday and my mind is on other stuff...
I agree I think you should do whatever helps, if AA and NA helps that is cool it just for me would be like lowering myself, but thats for me, I don't think that way about others. I am just very hard on myself so I know that is how I would look at it if I had addiction. I expect so much from myself because I was raised I have to be perfect and I so am not, so it is hard. But I am glad Ronnie that you have got better. I really am. HUGSimage

P.S Anyone watch Mad TV were the Doctor does the STOP IT therapy to people. That is so me,hahaha.

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