Yeah oh yeah. The stereotype of coffee drinking and cig smoking is there for a reason. I smoked so much when I sobered up! I never smoked that much before I did.

As far as lonely life yeah you nailed it there. I don't know how to articulate the feeling but I can assure you this hard case alcoholics and addicts are not having fun ughh it makes my stomach sick just thinking about how that feels. Trust me Amanda be thankful you don't understand this. It means you are one of the normal ones!

And even if Jehovah witness, bet he'll never testify, D'Evils...
- Jay-Z