Understanding an addiction is not always an easy path to walk on Mig honey. Rusty has his own personal 'demons' if you will ... to work through and even though he may feel the AA are not enough help ... they can and have helped hundreds and thousands of people to step out of the alcoholic haze and walk around clear headed. Alcohol addiction isn't something you just switch off ... it's never-ending and as Ron has said himself ... even talking about it can bring up memories and thoughts from the past. Be they good or bad ... talking about them, getting them out in the open and working on them is the best way to handle it. Keeping it all bottled in tightly is tantamount to setting one's self up for an implosion.

There are many people in here and members from your AA group and family who truly care about your welfare Rusty ... all you have to do is reach out and touch someone!