claire42 wrote:
Its taken a while for me to get to the "I don't care" point when I see a Witness. For a long time it really hurt when I saw my friends and they deliberately snubbed me. Especially when my mum (a witness in their congregation) was battling cancer, they would still literally turn their back on me as I passed, despite knowing the worry our family was going through. My anger at them would turn to absolute rage and I must admit to wanting to rain down blows on their nasty heads. It got so bad that it even took my sister (never a witness) to literally restrain me from thumping the living shit out of one of them one morning!

Now I'm at the point where I realise just what pathetic people they are. I have no energy to feel as angry as I did but I still can't feel any kindness or pity for them, perhaps that'll come in time. So when I see them now, I truly feel what they are worth. Nothing. I not only act as if they don't exist, but I feel nothing inside of me either. I just don't care who they are, what they do and what they think. They've proved to me the kind of peope they are, utterly worthless.
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Claire,

That must of been a horrible thing to deal with, to have your former friends deliberately snub you in the midst of dealing with so much pain yourself.

Your experience reminds me of something that happened oh about 10 years ago or so. When I was still a witness and an elder, we had a brother in the cong. who also suffered from and eventually died from cancer. He had a daughter who was DF'ed. At the funeral, when the family of the deceased was lined up and everyone was giving their condolences, nearly everyone snubbed her, AT HER OWN FATHER'S FUNERAL!!!! I remember how angry I was seeing what was taking place!! Upon seeing that, I immediately went over in front of everyone, told her how sorry I was for her and her family and gave her a big hug. I made sure everyone would see me also. I would have rather lost all my "cong. privileges" than to be so cruel and insensitive like the majority of the JW's there. Sometimes I don't think they're human. I think the Borg turns them into mindless robots! When I think of experiences like that and your's, it makes me angry!!! Believe me, I've had to restrain myself a few times from pounding on a few heads as well, and I'm not a violent person!

Big Mitch
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