A few weeks ago I was talking to my sil(hisbands sister) abt my doubts. She is also jw. She listened and voiced her own doubts about the org and some of the
tings we are told we need to do. Such as the unending studying. The emphasis on field service even at your own detriment. Etc. I asked her how she had resolved
these things for herself. She said there is nothing better religiously out there so I don't want to leave. She doesn't get paradise either. I don't
understand how people are ok with that. Its the lesser of 2 evils so it must be ok. Maybe there isn't supposed to be a better org but maybe we are supposed
to do what we feel is right and what allows us to live happy and stress free. One shouldn't live in fear of their next talk. Or that someone might answer
the door. With the new monthly bible study campaign I was even more terrified about someone opening the door or even accepting a bible study. We got sick
weekly while attending meetings. I think from stress. God couldn't want anyone to live like that. She doesn't know of our decision yet. I don't
know how she will react. And even if her reaction is good what about her husband who is somewhat fed up with org but know jah will fix those brothers
soon....blah...
