Hello,
I've been away for 3-4 years now... and was baptized at the age of 11 (This should be ILLEGAL!!!!). I CHOSE to leave when I was 18 years old and had to move across the country because it was too painful to be in the same town as my parents and to be ignored by them or to have "friends" (who I grew up with!!!) literally AVERT their eyes when we bumped into each other at the grocery store. I still have residual mind-fucks popping up once in awhile like self-esteem related things from being rejected by my family at such a young age...and so naive about "the world"... but I'm actually HAPPY now!
I left firstly, because most non-JW's I knew were much happier/saner than I or my family ever was. Secondly, because I could NOT believe (even though I was not allowed to say otherwise) that one group of people could be "RIGHT" and hold the Key to the ultimate "Truth" and OWN the rights to it. How can you be so self-righteous and puffed-up with pride??? So I quit school and left with my backpack for a permanent vacation on the other side of the continent.
A year later I was at my grandmother's funeral (non-JW) and a full-time pioneer sister (who held me as a baby) completely ignored me and SKIPPED me in the 'condolences line' and started shaking hands with my relatives (also, Non-JW's)... YOU WOULD NEVER SEE THIS BEHAVIOR IN "THE WORLD" (non-JWs)... EVER! This type of dehumanization goes against all HUMAN RIGHTS established by the United Nations... (and that is why JW's Fear and Hate the United Nations so much)... because their practices are Immoral! Who indoctrinates little children? Tells them to "do their own research"... and when they do their own research and come to a different conclusion they CUT THEM OFF and throw them out into the cold (with the option to "repent" and come crawling back)...??? CAN YOU SAY "NAZI"!!?? ...or "CULT"...? JW's have the scary ability to DEHUMANIZE people who don't agree with them... (even their own children). This is TRUE evil... if Satan exists and he has worshipers look no further than a Kingdom Hall...
Being raised a JW you are taught to distrust (and even fear) your own Mind (for thinking and questioning beyond what is allowed) and a Heart (that feels a VARIETY of feelings and knows when things aren't right. "Do not trust your heart" they say). This takes away, again, the very thing that makes you human... (Which is how my parents were able to cut-off both their own daughters).
This has been THE HARDEST thing to learn... to be OK with having thoughts of my OWN and feelings of my OWN. But now, I do not and will NEVER let anyone who sounds "smart" influence my actions (NO, I don't agree you have "the ONLY Truth"). I will never again smile because I feel I "should" for "the image". Now, I smile because I MEAN it! I will never ignore or swallow my feelings (I don't feel like going Door to Door) because there can be much wisdom in feelings... I honor myself now and others and can hear you without a veil of fear, judgment and shame.
I am Human Now : ) and there's nothing "evil" or "scary" about that.
Who wants to spend eternity with a bunch of gossiping, garbage-spewing, self-righteous fatalists anyway?
Happy New Year Everyone.
and Thanks for hearing my story.
~~~~~
and to all you prying JW's FUCK YOURSELVES DEEPLY IN THE ANUS you Satan Worshipers....hahahahahaha!!!!
~With Love
"Agape"
I've been away for 3-4 years now... and was baptized at the age of 11 (This should be ILLEGAL!!!!). I CHOSE to leave when I was 18 years old and had to move across the country because it was too painful to be in the same town as my parents and to be ignored by them or to have "friends" (who I grew up with!!!) literally AVERT their eyes when we bumped into each other at the grocery store. I still have residual mind-fucks popping up once in awhile like self-esteem related things from being rejected by my family at such a young age...and so naive about "the world"... but I'm actually HAPPY now!
I left firstly, because most non-JW's I knew were much happier/saner than I or my family ever was. Secondly, because I could NOT believe (even though I was not allowed to say otherwise) that one group of people could be "RIGHT" and hold the Key to the ultimate "Truth" and OWN the rights to it. How can you be so self-righteous and puffed-up with pride??? So I quit school and left with my backpack for a permanent vacation on the other side of the continent.
A year later I was at my grandmother's funeral (non-JW) and a full-time pioneer sister (who held me as a baby) completely ignored me and SKIPPED me in the 'condolences line' and started shaking hands with my relatives (also, Non-JW's)... YOU WOULD NEVER SEE THIS BEHAVIOR IN "THE WORLD" (non-JWs)... EVER! This type of dehumanization goes against all HUMAN RIGHTS established by the United Nations... (and that is why JW's Fear and Hate the United Nations so much)... because their practices are Immoral! Who indoctrinates little children? Tells them to "do their own research"... and when they do their own research and come to a different conclusion they CUT THEM OFF and throw them out into the cold (with the option to "repent" and come crawling back)...??? CAN YOU SAY "NAZI"!!?? ...or "CULT"...? JW's have the scary ability to DEHUMANIZE people who don't agree with them... (even their own children). This is TRUE evil... if Satan exists and he has worshipers look no further than a Kingdom Hall...
Being raised a JW you are taught to distrust (and even fear) your own Mind (for thinking and questioning beyond what is allowed) and a Heart (that feels a VARIETY of feelings and knows when things aren't right. "Do not trust your heart" they say). This takes away, again, the very thing that makes you human... (Which is how my parents were able to cut-off both their own daughters).
This has been THE HARDEST thing to learn... to be OK with having thoughts of my OWN and feelings of my OWN. But now, I do not and will NEVER let anyone who sounds "smart" influence my actions (NO, I don't agree you have "the ONLY Truth"). I will never again smile because I feel I "should" for "the image". Now, I smile because I MEAN it! I will never ignore or swallow my feelings (I don't feel like going Door to Door) because there can be much wisdom in feelings... I honor myself now and others and can hear you without a veil of fear, judgment and shame.
I am Human Now : ) and there's nothing "evil" or "scary" about that.
Who wants to spend eternity with a bunch of gossiping, garbage-spewing, self-righteous fatalists anyway?
Happy New Year Everyone.
and Thanks for hearing my story.
~~~~~
and to all you prying JW's FUCK YOURSELVES DEEPLY IN THE ANUS you Satan Worshipers....hahahahahaha!!!!
~With Love
"Agape"
