Just joined the forum!
My name is Tim, im 23, i live in the UK, im still a JW, and im gay!
Just wanted to share my story with you all! I have joined a few other sites recently and the response i have received has been nothing short of incredible. No doubt it will be the same here!
So... ever since i was a child i knew i had homosexual desires, but like all in the organisation, we are told to suppress them. I did for a long time... so much so that it causes severe depression. Now i look back, i see how interesting this has become because i have been such a good spiritual young man for so long (a vain attempt to blot out my desires), but i see how being so hasnt really helped me whatsoever. I am a very spiritual person, and i LOVE the bible, but i see how im not accepted by the organisation anymore. I find that sad really as this is what i have grown up with and in many ways, i do like it. I do see a lot of flaws since i have started to accept my own sexuality. I have become a lot more critical.
smiling. I still spend time with my friends in the congregations and i still go on the ministry and to the meetings but i can see how my zeal has seriously diminished... the reason is simple... i no longer fit in! Although this is the case... Anyway, 4 weeks ago i decided enough was enough. I was SICK of being depressed and confused, and after 13 years of it, i decided that im now gay! Im very PROUD of it too! Every morning I wake up and imim no longer depressed! YIPEE!!!
I did have a year long relationship with a brother and when he broke it off with me as it was becoming too serious... i became very upset and confused! My recent decision that enough is enough has been sparked from this. Now... im so happy with myself that i couldnt care less anymore about the organisation. I do think this is sad as i know i will lose a lot of friends but at least i will have someone i truly love and feel right with!
For anyone currently going through this situation... please email me!!! Talking about it with someone who understands is THE BEST THING you can possibly do! It seriously helped me!
Im now looking forward to the future... I know its going to be quite painful in places, but i bet its worth it!
Thanks for listening!
If you want to email me please feel free!
Edited to remove email address..........if you would like to speak with Tim please pm him