Well i have been on this site for a while. But never revealed my name, or my baby's. Just in case there was a lurker from the then husbands kingdumb hall. However, now i can say who i am. Post a pic and what not.
Just to catch others up, I married a JW. At the time he didn't go to the hall. HE lied about his "religion" and made it sound exactly like mine. I would go to church, but never learned about the JWs until after i got pregnant. That woke him up, so he started going back. Became violent, and un supportive. In the meantime while going to the hall, he was cheating on me, playing video games constant. Hardly had anything to do with my pregnancy until i pitched a fit over it. I thought he should know about all the baby stuff..and help plan it. IT became abusive somewhere in the mess. But i loved him. For whatever that was worth. Well fast forward, had the baby..that was okay..i had PD. Things went down hill once the baby was born. He never touched me. Was cheating on me, and had me in tears everyday. So in February, he hit me for the last time. Broke my ribs, and the baby also got in the cross fire. I went to the ER. Then to the police department to file a report. He was arrested that night. In that time, i had maybe a week where i was crying non stop, wanted him back. Typical in cases like this. But within the 3 weeks that followed i found myself, found out who i was without him, and i liked myself better. I didnt miss him, i missed having someone with me. But i could get over that. I missed sleeping next to someone..but not him. I fell out of love with him a long time ago, but didnt know how to leave..i finally filed for the divorce and had to wait for it to be final..Which it was sometime last week!
So here i am, on my way to Texas with my son, Lucas and my mother. She has job offers there. I can get my old job back and i plan on going back to school. I also have oportunity's to pursue my passion in photography. Life is looking up, and i couldn't be happier. Thank you everyone who has been there through out my whole relationship with my ex. It has helped me so much being able to talk to others who can relate. I dont know if im putting this in the right section. But it is happy news! Im free!!!! I learned from the relationship, and i will always love him in some way. But we just weren't meant to be..
Anyways thats whats been going on in a nutshell.
Xoxo
Nicole aka Joan
