My ex, with whom I have a 2 year old daughter with, decided to join the JW's a few months after she was born. He was so loving and kind, but he had anger issues when we fought, so I moved out in order for him to get help so our baby wasnt exposed. To figure out ways to deal with his anger, he decided becoming a JW again (he was previously studying in his country years ago) was the best option.
To make a long story short, his anger issues seemed to go away, and he figured ways through his faith, not to be angry when we fought. In addition however, he began to treat me in a distant way, putting the JWS before me and our child. He was often blaming me when the baby wouldn't comply with him (he was always studying or out for bible study) and he was very grouchy and cruel towards me.
We agreed not to influence our daughter in any religion, but I found out he was secretly showing her JW videos. We argued on this, but he continued, and after much distance and coldness towards me, he left to stay with them. I am heartbroken, and I cannot fathom how a person can just walk away from his family for this cult. There are so many people out there who don't have the family that we could have, but he takes it for granted and just walks out, because he believes this is God's will.
I've lost so much faith in God, because I know this is not how life should be, and I don't know why He would allow something like this to occur. I constantly blame myself, I feel like a failure because I tried to keep our family togetger for our daughter, but I failed, he left.
Please, if anyone has any words of advice or words to comprehend this, please share with me. This is unreal to me, I don't understand it, and I truly am heartbroken.