Hi! It seems I was a J.W. all my life, although I was actually 14, and I remember after I learned about a paradise earth I just had to tell everyone, so that
they could be there too. I was wit-
nessing in school , which of course soon made me an odd ball, and I began losing interest in school work which I saw as pointless even though I had always been an a student! So I drop-
ped out in the 10th. grade, neither one of my parents objected, because they too believed that the time was short, and that education wasn't important-even though prior to discovering the
"truth" both my older siblings had finished high school! I began to think that all my silly dreams as a young woman needed to be forgotten,it's like I did not matter -spreding the truth was the
only thing that should matter! I remember dropping out of band, and my band teaher's reaction because he knew how much I loved music.I wrote my 1st. song when I was 8,now that de-
cision is a major regret! I also had dreams of joining the wacs, or waves and seeing the world, and of course that too was forgotten! Shortly after dropping out of school I began my own
quiet rebellion of the "truth" after hearing that Jehovah would also destroy innocent babies of parents who were not in the "truth" when armageddon struck! It seemed so mean,and unfair of
him,so in my heart I thought I don't want to love a God like that! What followed was a long series of really bad decisions, a bad marriage at 18 with thankfully no children,then another bad
marriage with 2 wonderful children that I unfortunately raised as J.W.'s believing that I had to,because there blood would be on my hands if not,stayed in an abusive marriage even though
he was a non-believer because I was told I still had to honor him as head of the family, which I did even though my husband was illerate, had an alchol and gambling addiction, and little if
any control of his anger! For years I sat back and just allowed what was going on believing that somehow,someday he would see the light-as long as I could just hold on and continue to
set a good example!, which never happened! I now realize that the most important thing in life is peace, and I am so thankful to be free of what I once thought was the "truth", I'm reading
the book "A NEW EARTH", and have read the book "THE SECRET", I know I must find my own truth, and I also must loose the regrets for it serves no purpose to walk back through
old shadows! It is just difficult! The friends I thought I had will not talk to me, I also feel the distance with some of my family,thankly not all of them, but still it's the path I have chosen to
walk, and any advice or thoughts would be so welcome !
nessing in school , which of course soon made me an odd ball, and I began losing interest in school work which I saw as pointless even though I had always been an a student! So I drop-
ped out in the 10th. grade, neither one of my parents objected, because they too believed that the time was short, and that education wasn't important-even though prior to discovering the
"truth" both my older siblings had finished high school! I began to think that all my silly dreams as a young woman needed to be forgotten,it's like I did not matter -spreding the truth was the
only thing that should matter! I remember dropping out of band, and my band teaher's reaction because he knew how much I loved music.I wrote my 1st. song when I was 8,now that de-
cision is a major regret! I also had dreams of joining the wacs, or waves and seeing the world, and of course that too was forgotten! Shortly after dropping out of school I began my own
quiet rebellion of the "truth" after hearing that Jehovah would also destroy innocent babies of parents who were not in the "truth" when armageddon struck! It seemed so mean,and unfair of
him,so in my heart I thought I don't want to love a God like that! What followed was a long series of really bad decisions, a bad marriage at 18 with thankfully no children,then another bad
marriage with 2 wonderful children that I unfortunately raised as J.W.'s believing that I had to,because there blood would be on my hands if not,stayed in an abusive marriage even though
he was a non-believer because I was told I still had to honor him as head of the family, which I did even though my husband was illerate, had an alchol and gambling addiction, and little if
any control of his anger! For years I sat back and just allowed what was going on believing that somehow,someday he would see the light-as long as I could just hold on and continue to
set a good example!, which never happened! I now realize that the most important thing in life is peace, and I am so thankful to be free of what I once thought was the "truth", I'm reading
the book "A NEW EARTH", and have read the book "THE SECRET", I know I must find my own truth, and I also must loose the regrets for it serves no purpose to walk back through
old shadows! It is just difficult! The friends I thought I had will not talk to me, I also feel the distance with some of my family,thankly not all of them, but still it's the path I have chosen to
walk, and any advice or thoughts would be so welcome !
