You what I am sick of? Being treated like nothing. Once again I am passed over. I keep showing up to meetings and they dont call on me. Whatever. So this
time I put my name on the top of the list, all caps, bold: RUSTY.
I listen to Mr 'Im so happy to be fucking sober' for 20 minutes (he was only supposed to talk for 15) The topic was resentment, great. I have alot of
them. So I wait and wait and listen to this guy and that girl and blah blah blah, thinking of all the things I wanted to say. One and ahalf hours and the
fucking asshole doesnt call on me. I had some good shit to say too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They'd know that if they gave me a fucking chance for once !!!!!!!!!!
Just abunch of the same old bullshit, from the same old people! Not one person said what I was going to say, either.
Pisses me off. I guess Im not one of the popular AA members. I guess Im not good enough to be heard. Just call on your friends. Just call on the people you
know. Call on the same people everytime. I left the meeting pissed off. I was pissed off the whole last half hour knowing that I was being ignored once again.
Man fuck everything and everyone. What abunch of dicks. So sorry Im not one of the popular ones. So sorry Im not in their fucking click. If this were a one
time thing it would be different but this happens all the time, and I goto alot of thses damn things. He couldnt of missed my name in all bold at the top of
the list. Asshole.
What the fuck do I have to do be like everyone else? What the fuck do I have to do to be accepted? I dont even give a shit anymore. People arent worth my
fucking time. If they want to treat me like I dont exist or matter then you know what? They dont exist to me, they dont matter. Nothing does.
